My Grace

Reg has decided that we are to stop the biomedical treatments starting end of June. The cost is just too much. After 'scrambling' to pay for Jaden's medicines and supplements since September, we are now 'sinking' financially. I am looking for a night job now, instead of waiting until Jaden starts school in August. I feel incredibly sad about this, as I know Jaden needs these treatments. Her test results show she is not absorbing calcium, zinc, and her glutathione levels are too low. She also has lead and mercury in her body. She has not made a miraculous recovery with them but she has become more manageable and happy. She looks at us, has learned to come when her name is called, even has started giving kisses over the past three days. She has also started enjoying laughing with us. I know that Reg would continue the treatments if he could. I am trying to be understanding because I know he has the best interests of the whole family involved and is trying to make the best decision for everyone--not just JadenGrace. But when I think of stopping her treatments, I feel like I am standing ashore watching my baby go under, again and again. I am not sure I will be able to obey Reg in this. And yet, maybe God wants me to....Please pray I can trust Him with everything--and obey.