Hope

There is a glimmer of hope in Jaden's behaviors these past two or three days. I have been hesitant to share it since she could go backwards at any time. I have noticed her not having as many meltdowns, looking into our eyes when she talks with us, coming to us to 'share' what she is thinking. The only negative is she still walks around saying, "I am hungry!" "I think I am hungry" all day long. She eats a LOT. There is no way this child is hungry. I have already had her blood sugar tested and that is fine. I pray this is the last of her symptoms and it will be all uphill from here. I suppose I had come to believe that she was doing so well that regression was no longer a concern of mine. I will never make that mistake again. I need to be diligent every day of her life to make sure she is getting everything she needs, and protected from things that other kids can so freely enjoy--certain foods, chlorine in pools, lots of sugar, swimming in lakes where so much bacteria can get in but (at least in Jaden's case) can't get back out without help.
I am feeling somewhat depressed now. I struggled with it for several months after Jaden was born but it was also situational, not hormonal. I miss the joy I had, even in the midst of painful circumstances. I have the glimmer of it somewhere deep but I want what God gives--overflowing!! Let it be, Father. Amen!