This summer has been tough!

I realized that the last time Jaden was in danger of complete regression was last summer. This summer has been rough as well. She has had yeast overgrowth and the usual antifungals that we use have not worked for her so her numbers remain high--in the 400's. Oh, how that affects her behavior! She is hyper, uncooperative, emotional, and so anxious. She paces and moans a good part of every day. In the past week I have seen gradual improvement in behaviors so I know the yeast is dying but it is a slow process. We are now using herbs to get rid of the yeast. I have these thoughts that every single thing will eventually not work for her and then what? Will she be full of yeast and forever have autistic behaviors. I, after four years of fighting, am really weary. I struggle with anxiety and have to remember to give it to God--He says, "come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest" I need to remember that. I need to remind myself that He is only a cry away. I need His strength desperately. I can't give up, though my body and mind want to! I keep thinking if God doesn't perform a supernatural healing today what will happen tomorrow? Not just to Jaden but to the rest of our family? The stress at times is so overwhelming. The things that are thought but never said still hang in the air as if someone actually had the nerve to speak it. The temptation to blame and point fingers and get angry is so huge. The command to love one another becomes a monsterous undertaking. God, move quickly, in the strong name of Jesus.