Struggling today

I was very excited to see that my girl was finally free of yeast and bacteria last week. I thought it might be the end of a lot of her difficult behaviors as well, since yeast and bacteria overgrowth cause so much havoc on a little body and mind. In the past, if yeast and bacteria were present, so were difficult behaviors. If we got the gut cleared up a bit the behaviors would get much, much better. But this time is different. My girl is still struggling. She is easily frustrated, not willing to obey and so hyperactive! I am also struggling hormonally right now, and always with that comes negative thinking and hopelessness. I hate that! I want to live in a place of perpetual hope as far as my girl is concerned. I never want to lose that--it's too important, for her and for our whole family. I can't do what I do everyday if I don't believe it will work. But it has been so long--four years--and she still struggles so much! I feel close to a big, dark hole ready to swallow me alive. I am teary and bitter. I am fighting being angry with God about taking so long to bring healing, and relief! I hate being like this. I am so tired. And sad. Welcome to a part of my world.