Deep (quick) thoughts

18 months into this life-change: I was in church one night and there was an autistic boy, about age 12 or 13, sitting with his parents. He had a smile on his face and was talking, but sounded like he was 5. He wasn't terribly disruptive but naturally I was drawn to him because the only other autistic children I know are 3 and under! This boy was there with a message from God to me. I know it for two reasons: I had never seen this boy at church before that night, and I haven't seen him since. (not a very big place) Also, God spoke to my heart that night, as I watched this happy boy. I knew that He was telling me it was time to accept autism. It was time to accept that JadenGrace is autistic. That was hard for me, because He has opened every door for Jaden to get well. I could be here for two hours telling you the things that have happened in our journey to find her help--things that I feel only God could have done. So now I have to try to figure this out--God is healing my daughter, but he still wants me to accept that she is autistic.