Two stops forward...

Jaden did wind up being pretty ill--but just for three or four days before she was better. Her intestines began to act up, though, and so Dr B decided to stop the chelation for now. She prescribed Jaden an antibiotic and Ketoconazole to help get the intestinal bacteria under control.
I thought the chelation was having no side effects but it did, on the inside where I couldn't see.
I am a bit disappointed to stop the chelation but I do know that we can try again later, after Jaden is well again. I have perfect peace about that.
She has said, "I lub you" a few times in the past few days. And I have noticed that she can 'find' someone now. Like, if I am busy and she wants a drink, I can say, "Jaden, can you take your cup to Daddy? He is in the kitchen--he can get you a drink." And off she goes to look for him. :o) She can be so very sweet. It is amazing to me how much our hearts are filled with love for this little person.
One day I was having a hard time, feeling completely overwhelmed with my duties and responsibilities. A friend called at precisely the right moment. As soon as I heard her voice, I began to cry. She talked with me and prayed for me. (Doncha love prayer warrior friends?) She said, "Don't give up! God has a plan." I felt such resolve rise up in me. I knew at that moment, and I know now, that I will *never* give up on this child. Some feel that my efforts to make her well means that I can't accept her for who she is. But I know that God created people to be in relationships. I have to do everything He tells me to do to help her have relationship with others. That is my goal. Not that she be up to grade level, or act perfectly refined. Not that she needs to be married one day. Not that she have the world's view of success. But that she look people in the eyes, that she say hi and bye to them, that she knows when someone is sad, or mad, or afraid, and seeks to help them. That she knows when people are rejoicing and can join in with their good news. That she knows her Father in heaven loves to be with her, and she can talk to Him all throughout the day and night. That she understands that friends are precious. I know that these are the things (and probably more!) that God wants for her!