All the time, just as I want to give up and give in and believe all the lies that my child is not really getting better, and everything I am doing is a waste, God steps in! He gives me a reminder that He is in charge and that His promises are true!
This morning JadenGrace and I were on our way to school and she had her head resting on my arm. I said, "I love you so much, Jaden". She said, "I love you, too, Mom. And I am so glad I came down".
Jaden will often say 'off the wall' kind of things that we scramble to try to figure out. But this morning was different. Though it sounded like something that couldn't be understood, I knew right away that her words were coming straight from God. He was reminding me that she came straight from heaven, and that He created her, sent her, and has a great plan and purpose for her life. And SHE knows it! I may struggle but she doesn't. She knows exactly where she came from and exactly who she is.
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About Me
- Bon
- A busy Christian mama who is being changed quickly and profoundly by autism.
Helpful websites
- http://talkaboutcuringautism.org
- http://autismwebsite.com/practitioners/us_lc.htm
- http://nathhan.com
- http://intentionalparents.com
- http://missionautism.com
- http://hiddenrecovery.com
- http://autismgames.googlepages.com
- http://Vianow.org
- http://do2learn.com
- http://brainchildnutritionals.com
- http://starfall.com
- http://marriagebuilders.com
- http://generationrescue.org
- http://difflearn.com
- http://first-assembly.org
3 comments:
That's sweet. What a special girl. :)
I have to remind myself that Sam and Ben are still blessings. My husband reminds me that he still loves Ben and that he's glad we have him. This means a lot to me. Especially on his "bad" days; which really aren't so bad because he's always so happy. (hard to explain)
Jaden was a reversal baby too. I don't know if you ever struggle with the "why didn't I leave well enough alone", but I do sometimes. But then like today, as I was putting Ben in the car, he grabs my head and plants a great big kiss right on my lips. And he's worth it. He doesn't talk, but he lets me know he loves me.
Rambly comment. I hope it makes sense. And I'm not implying those are your thoughts, but just sharing that I struggle with that. I don't think too many people would understand.
I absolutely do understand what you are saying--it is hard to comprehend that because God created these children and they were definately created for a reason and a purpose (all children are but these being reversal babies makes them extra 'intentional') that they would have so many challanges. I am never tempted to wish I didn't have her but I do pray that my life would be easier. I hate the harm autism does, to the child, to the family and to the soul. I can't help but wonder if it is straight from the devil because he wants to steal the voices of these future warriors. I know God is soveriegn but these thoughts run through my head.
Ok one part of that was wrong--I said, 'I am never tempted to wish I didn't have her' and that is not true. I am TEMPTED to wish that but I don't entertain it for a minute. I fight those thoughts and speak truth instead--that God made her, answered my prayers, and has a plan and purpose for her, even if I don't understand the details.
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