Ooopppsss

One of the things I needed to get Jaden to help clear up her intestinal woes was Oil of Organo. I found it at the HFS. When I was getting it ready to give to her (one drop a day) Reg said, "I think I should taste it first" Too late, I had already dropped it into her mouth. Jaden yelled. Not a cry, but a loud protest. It was the same sound she makes sometimes just walking around the house, distressed. I immediately knew she needed a drink by the look on her face. Reg was so mad at me. After she seemed settled enough, each of us put a drop on our own tounge. I could not believe how one DROP of something could be so strong and painful. Boy, did I feel like a heel.
I admit that, even after nearly 19 years of marriage, I struggle to listen to my hubby. I always think my way is best. And I don't like to be told what to do. God has been teaching me what a godly wife looks like for a long, long time and I still fail so miserably. I believe that when we go through trials there is so much more He wants to teach us than we know. There have been more times during the last three months that I have seen that Reggie was 'right' about things than ever in our whole 19 years.
Our family is still in the muck and mire. Right now we can't even see our way out. In addition to Jaden's needs, one of our other children is struggling with depression. Two of them still need to be homeschooled, and active in the world. Thanksgiving is coming, and Christmas, which we are finding to be more of a chore than anything. We are not keeping up on housework, or yardwork, or bills. We have credit card debt for the first time in over twelve years. We are frustrated that we cannot afford ABA therepy for Jaden, and might need to attempt that ourselves, adding it to our already crammed schedule in January. Only 20-30 hours a week is what is recommended. (sarcasm inserted) We have placed an application to a small charter school in Orlando that offers all of what Jaden needs. We will know if she is accepted in the spring and then will need to relocate there. The thing is, we didn't plan to move ever again. We also didn't plan to use public schools for our children's education, especially not at three years old. We didn't plan for me to work but now Reg working two or three jobs is still not enough.
I suppose one of the things God teaches us is to 'never say never'
Prayer for healing, strength, patience, wisdom and finances would be greatly appreciated.